Getting personal

When I started this blog, I decided I didn't want to talk about how I felt about thesis and the process because I was going to let people know about it and noone wanted to hear me complain. But I don't know anyone that reads it, and I've had my final committee meeting, so I thought I would blow off a little steam with the understanding that yes, I do love my project and I'm very fond of the School of Architecture, my professors, and the other students.

So in no particular order, a list of questions.

Why do my friends come to sit at my desk and complain about how much work they have to do? And that they can't wait until it's over? I have to produce a thesis project, and I have three weeks of hell to go through. Have they not noticed that I'm at school all the time?

Why does drinking coffee make my stomach decide to suceed? It's apparently trying to abdicate from my abdomen in an intensely painful way.

Why didn't I wear a sweater, or at the very least a long sleeved shirt today? It's freezing.

Why does stress make me hurt my feet so it's hard to walk? Am I trying to prevent myself from leaving my apartment, or possibly even my bed?

Why doesn't complaining about this make me feel better?

Do people actually believe I'm relaxed? And how is saying 'You'll be fine: you're Archigeek!' supposed to reassure me? That's the problem. I'm Archigeek. And she doesn't know what she is doing.

Why is this so unpleasant? I swore I would try to enjoy this thesis as much as possible because it's likely it will be my last real design project. But here I am, moaning and groaning.

What is the best way to deal with someone saying 'I miss being a student. You're so lucky: these days I rarely get home before 7 at night' ? Can it involve some slapping?

Will I ever lose these circles under my eyes? Are the wrinkles I've noticed for the first time this semester permanent?

Why is facebook so addictive, and why won't my friends do more things so it can take up more time?

Did I waste as much time this weekend as I think I did? Was what I was doing instead of homework actually a waste of time? Can I claim that martini drinking as brainstorming time? When am I going to drink my next martini?

Is not going to yoga giving me more time to work on my project, or just making me less focused?

Why can't I start the project that is due April 20th? Do I want to fail?

Why do all my muscles hurt?

Is Team Fun actually going to be fun? Are Team, the DBA, Short Bus, Mr. Clean and The Vegan going to want me dead? Am I going to want them dead? Is there going to be a murder/suicide in the studio, leaving the concrete floors awash with blood?

Can I do this?

This would be an excellent time to delurk, if you feel so inclined.